acquire the tendencies to comfort yourself to become sufficient okay
okay
in prep for today ( there was an internal windfall of dread and i allowed that to communicate the future events that did inevitably occur)
{i predicted the future once before in 8th grade}
the immediate purchase of Alhazred ( dumbo rat )was transacted last night to comfort my sorrows and cushion the blow that is my attitude? competence? inadequacy?
(considering myself sufficient b/c tender vermin do not have a conscious state of mind )
i may have damned my only convenient opportunity to scamper off into the unfamiliar but what is job security to a cleaning lady but a mushed up peanut butter cup in the carpet?
what is the difference aside from minor mechanical alterations
a physical reaction its all the same chemical compound
is "raw talent" something so remarkable that i cannot predetermine my very own path. No i didn't choose these horrific hands and i suppose that means i cannot choose the direction they drag me.
